katisconfused

I thought I should mention I have basically moved to tumblr.
I still check things here but not nearly as much, like maybe once a week or so. So if for some reason you care I actually post shit there.

So yeah, my health situation is still a joke. The biggest development in this since the last post which was just and neurovascular condition and some other old things that are mostly managed is probably the little thing that mom has never really mentioned before that was probably never that really important until now but really is, is medication sensitivity. This, is what makes a normally manageable, liveable illness into a disability because you cannot treat yourself properly. Of course convincing people that this is disabling is another story. I apparently, with my "burning foot disease" that is triggered by walking and standing, am not in need of a handicap parking tag. Never mind I mailed in the signed form because obviously that doctor is lying and the guy behind the desk is far more specialized in the illness I have that is so weird I went to something called grand rounds where allllll the doctors and meds students come and stare at your weird illness, because you know I am cool like that. So now I need to file an appeal so I can do things like go to stores and such.

For the last month I had not health care so I tried acupuncture, because surely you cannot have a bad reaction to acupuncture! Unless of course your are Kat. Yes, that would be a bruise about the size of the bottom of a soda can and it is from an acupuncture needle. I have no idea how that works. It didn't happen until AFTER the needle came out either, then it was a welt, that is actually the week after so you can imagine how bad it was the first day or so. It is still there but lighter. So yeah, acupuncture didn't go too well. Which is a shame because now I have joint pain. I am a rice krispy treat. SNAP! CRACK! POP! They of course don't know what this is so it doesn't count, which is annoying because it would be useful to put on that tag so I can leave the house for things that don't involve a doctor's office or being a pincushion because my god, we are on month NINE now of homebound and the internet stopped being fun after about four. I'm too brain fogged for reading and too sloppy for video games too. I am soooooo bored.

My computer is shitting out, the wireless is broken and I have been doing a dance about it for the last week. My old computer that I have for backup is also shitting out. This one has a clearly dying hard drive and updates make it REALLY ANGRY which is unfortunate since due to me not using it, it is really out of date. The failing hard drive is of course in addition to the failing DVD drive and usb ports, I replaced it for a reason after all, but the hard drive failure is a real bitch I wasn't counting on.

My car is broken again. This week's list includes the wiper fluid hose, again, probably in multiple places because fixing it the normal way doesn't fix it totally anymore and there is no pressure, so probably a leak somewhere on the line. All the fluid in the container is also disappearing so probably a leak somewhere there too. The trunk won't open with the lever in the car, only if I turn the key in it now, and it no longer beeps when it locks so I have to go check the locks and make sure it took.

This of course is not all, as my things simply mirror their owner. I have been posting on a message board for people who are chronically ill and because the doctors sure as hell aren't going to do it if something send up a flag for me I check that shit out. One of the things wrong with me is a bleeding disorder called Von Willebrands. Its one of those weird things no one has heard of. I noticed someone else on the forum (everyone puts their illness list in their signature) also had Von Willebrands as well as something called EDS. EDS? I have not heard of this, but this person has something I have so lets check this shit out.
So yeah, I probably have that. I have 7/9 symptoms (I'm not counting the pregnancy one) and one of the 2 I don't have used to apply to me, but having such a laundry list of crap going on my Erythromelagia pretty much did a number on a lot of my skin and made it dry and nasty. So on my tomorrow to-do list I now must add "make appointment with a genetic doctor" to check that shit out because with 2 other rare hereditary diseases it's not really a wasted trip anyway. I'm a genetic nightmare anyway.

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I AM HAPPIEST DUNSPARCE IN THE WORLD

VW seems to have forgotten my warranty is up. I do not need to buy a new car as they are doing the thousands of dollars repair for free.

I will put my spreadsheet (yes I am serious I made one) of cars away for awhile. Peggy ain't dead yet!

In excellent timing, a dunsparce has appeared! I would recommend no one tries to outbid me as I just saved an entire car worth of money. I can totally drop an obscene amount on a dunsparce now.

My car is acting up, and given it's age and it's piss poor build quality it is probably on the way out.

This means buying a replacement and it hasn't been going well.

There is obviously something really screwed up with me because car shopping has turned into a big fat math equation. I am mentally making charts of things and comparing them and I honestly have no clue where I am going with it. My mother is so pissed at my constant spouting of car math.

Why can't I just buy a car for dumb reason like normal people instead of calculating how much weight is on the drive wheels of every car and crap like that?

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Also, for the pokeypeople who do not watch me on dA I hazing a nuzlocke.

X-posted from dA

As of today I am officially withdrawn from UMASS. I really didn't want to but my escalating condition and other various life stress makes it pretty damn hard to concentrate on classes. My right hand has swollen back up again, so I once again cannot comfortably hold a pen most of the time. The ability to write is kind of needed for college so I would have been massively fucked between absences and inability to take notes. I was already in danger of failing via absences within the first week.

SO yeah this sucks. I feel useless all the time, because basically I am. It hurts to draw, it hurts to open a can of soda, it hurts to open doors. Typing has to be done mostly with my left hand. ._.

I don't know what I am really going to do with my life if this doesn't get better. I know I can never do hairdressing as every aspect of it would aggravate the condition even if it's under controlled. You might as well have an asthmatic run a marathon. I'm not really good at much in general. Okish art talent is all I've had going for me and I can't do any of it properly with out my hand. I'll probably end up on disability for the rest of my life because I am not good enough at anything for a real job and any crap job requires hands and standing and being in warm or cold places. I am really fucked.

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TOMORROWS FORECAST



Fuck snow man, fuck snow.

edit: Also in my area:

OBVIOUSLY the beetle is better as it is still right side up.

By the lovely busterella :3

Since I have not heard of someone getting above a C in art history this is an epic win for me. :D
I actually emailed my regular history teacher to inform her she is awesome at teaching to make history retardant Kat get an A from learning. I don't think teachers who teach well get told that enough. I wish I could have thanked my High School English teacher before he died. :(

On a note related to that pic being hosted on dA, why the fuck is photobucket broken but only for me?

in other news I must sew another ninetails. Oh joy, why do I do this to myself?

Also I can has a cyndaquil

I will name him pasta because he is fat.

I just sent mother an email linking to sunnyshore and asking for a broccoli monkey for christmas.

This is my solution to the fact I have no money for collecting, I REALLY WANT THE MONKEYS DAMNIT.

Now to explain to mother Gin will not steal her monies lol.

Some of you may remember from a little while ago that My art history teacher is insane. Here are some updates.

She teaches classes by powerpoint slide shows and endless rambling. Tuesday I decided it would be easier to take the file (she posts them in pdf format on blackboard) throw it into acrobat and simply write the notes directly on the slides so I would be able to study easier, as if you have like 3 different statues of the same person it's annoying to look up the pictures and make sure you have the right notes for the right ones.

Apparently this is very frowned upon. Having the same exact image on my laptop screen that she has on the projector = totally not paying any attention and is equivalent to fucking around on facebook or something.

She then goes on to inform us that anything that is not:

Artist name:
Artwork name:
Style:
Date:
Location (if building):
Other:

It will not be on the test and is irrelevant fluff and if we write it we are not paying attention. Guess what about 2/3 of the lectures and subsequently the notes I have been taking are? Yup. Irrelevant fluff. So for the 3rd time this week I must redo all of my notes because what she is teaching is not what we will be tested on.

Fuck you bitch, fuck you.